this life is a journey.

im so pumped its the weekend. i have a good one ahead of me. and to think this past week was kinda rough for me. i honestly couldnt tell you why- it just was. i was very emotionally unstable, feeling quite a bit of rejection, and just pure lazy. i skipped alot of class this week, cried out to the Lord for help alot this week.

i guess the best conclusion to my feelings are satan. he is the only one that can make me feel so attacked, yet not understand why. but God brought me though it. once i finally asked Him for help. and here i am, happy as a clown. overjoyed for this weekend im spending with my family and my love. ADORE these weekends.

and did anyone catch LOST last night? kate and aaron? something is sketchy!! i love LOST.. love it... : )

so, here's to a fabulous weekend filled with blessings.
I am rejoicing in a new day!!
Rejoice with me!!

its beginning to feel alot like spring. but who really knows with GA weather right?

i adore spring. adore it. the start of warmth in march. the april showers and may flowers only bring me happiness.
and my anniversary with al is in may- may 15 to be exact- 3 flippin years. thats a lonnng time ladies and gents. but its been wonderfully long. : ) what do you do for a 3 year dating anniversary? im sure we'll think of something insane- NOT. we are so low-key. its great. you have to be. otherwise, you run out of money and things to do after like 2 weeks.

anyways, i dont really have anything good to say. just felt like writing.

i have come to a conclusion. i am in love with ikea. it might be the greatest store on earth. i can and have spend hours in there. it has everything you might ever need concerning decoration/living in your house. when i buy a house, im going to be making a weekend trip there. i will probably sleep in the store considering they have beds ready made. ive pretty much planned out my house already. oh what a joy it will be to decorate. my second love. wait, its more like my 4th. : )

school is lame. love is great. God is great. getting a job is lame, but money is great. well kids, thats life i guess. there are things we enjoy and things we dont. but all necessary for growth and life. all i know is God has blessed me. and is continuing to do so. im thrilled for what's to come, simply because i look forward to the future always. im learning to be content though. right here, where God has me. He knows me. He knows what i need.

-so here's to being content, while looking forward to what's to come.

speaking of what's to come- im going to chattanooga this weekend for my brother's bday and im thrilled. were going to rock city and the caverns. i LOVE field trips. especially family ones.

aloha! bonjour!
i adore you all : )

i was so encouraged by this song tonight. i havent heard it for years, but when i used to listened to stacie orrico i always -loved- this song. and tonight, as im singing in my bed as i always do, it just came out. like i said, havent heard it for years- obviously the Lord, because im usually hooked on the artists i was just listening to in my car or on itunes. but not tonight. 

God wanted me to sing it. 
THEN think it. 
because i obviously wasnt thinking it before i sang it. so here i am thinking it and trying to figure out why God gave it to me, just like always. but i dont think it was meant to be thought. << quote me on that line. something's very oxymoron-ish about it. anyways, i simply came to the conclusion that writing about it was thinking enough for me. 

and mostly, i wanted to share it with you all, whomever you might be other than my regulars. ; ) because it only takes -one- person to impact many. but its Him. not me. He's done and doing the work. << there i go again with those phrases...

so here.

its not her words, its the Lord's. that will be obvious to you when you read the lyrics. but i encourage you to READ the lyrics, not just skim them because you already know the words. because they are so extremely special. they are meaningful. they are powerful beyond belief. they have changed my life. it wont hurt you to read them and thank the Lord for his promises while your at it. (( i even bolded it for you, now there's no excuses. : p ))

without love

"If I speak in the tongues of angels, but have not love 
I'm only a resounding noise 
If I have the gift of knowledge 
And if my faith moves mountains high 
But have not love I am nothing 

Though I know the One 
Who holds the stars in the heavens 
In the palm of His hand 
If I give all I possess 
To the poor and the helpless 
I'll still gain nothing 
Without love 


Love's patient 
True love is always kind 
Love does not envy 
Never brags, it's never proud 
Slow to wrath, it keeps no records of wrongs against friends 
Love forgives 
We all could use forgiveness 

Though I know the One who holds
The stars in the heavens 
In the palm of His hands 
If I give all I possess  
To the poor and the helpless 
I'll still gain nothing  

Love never fails 
Love is true 
Love's the one thing that can always change you 
Love is patient 
Love is kind 
Love's the one reason the world survives 
Love never fails 
Love is true 
Love's the one thing that can always change you 
Love is patient 
Love is kind 
Love's the one reason the world survives 

Though I know the One who holds
The stars in the heavens 
In the palm of His hands  
If I give all I posses  
To the poor and the helpless 
I'll still gain nothing 
Without Love" 


we know The One who holds the stars in the heavens, in the palm of His hands.
REALLY??? 
yes. really.
He is my God.
He is so mighty.
He is Abba Father.
He is love.


so i must ask it. what does LOVE mean to you? i want to get feedback here. some of you will be able to give me super straight answers, organized answers. and many( i know at least one ;-) ) will need to analyze, examine their hearts, and give me the mush. the gush. << those are all good by the way. and both types of answers are wonderful. 

its mostly for you. for God to teach you a bit more about yourself. for you to realize what love is to you, so you can better understand how to love others and believe it or not-- yourself. you must love yourself. please guys and gals. you're too amazing to not love yourselves.

and its some for me. to know how to love you better. even if i dont know you, i still love you deeply.

so i have this passion for singing. like crazy. music literally does something crazy to me. when im singing, listening, recording(on my nifty garageband) something insane is going on in me. i dont know why. well, i do actually. The Lord has put it in me, given it to me. i connect with Him most when im worshipping Him. for those of you who sing, make music, etc. understand this completely. so here's where my heart has been tugging me lately.