Saturday, February 27, 2010
this has been my song for the night. so i have to start with it. its from A FINE FRENZY's new album "bomb in a birdcage. check it out.
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It must be written that
The moon elbowed the stars and said
"Let's do our best to make it hard for them"
Your house turned into paper cranes,
We watched the wind blow them away
Some sorry comfort I was then
The weight of a mountain
The skin off your knees
From climbing up to me
We can work this out
I believe, although it seems impossible
They turned our skeletons to wood,
And scattered matches underfoot
We must walk carefully these days
The circles darken round our eyes
And yet our bodies, when combined
They gleam like diamonds in a cave
The weight of a mountain
The skin off your knees
From climbing back to me
We can work this out
I believe, although it seems impossible now
Keep the world without
Only the two of us count
Two hearts as one
It is possible now
They'll try to tear us down
But we'll find our way again
And Heloise,
Gave her whole heart to Pete
Now eternally sleeps by his side
Oh, go ahead fate
Oh, give us your best
What is worth living for, is worth a fight
Into the night
We can work this out
I believe, although it seems impossible now
Yeah, without a doubt
We'll work it out
They can't hurt us now
On my knees,
It makes me want to scream n shout
"Yeah, we'll work this out"
Just the two of us
Keep the world without
-the world without.
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well, one thing i know is im ridiculous. and miserable these days. but another thing i know is God is still God. and He is STILL working. i just have to keep waiting on Him. trusting His timing. something i completely suck at. i dont want to be weak. i hate being weak. i hate not being able to honestly tell people im doing great. because lately, i've been telling people that... and its no where near the truth. life is incredibly tough for me right now. i sound like such a little girl. i am a little girl. im only 21. and life is only going to get more challenging.
i feel like good ol' david in the psalms. im always crying out to God. to be in a place of needing Him is exactly where i should be, but im sick of hurting, sick of wondering, sick of asking myself the same thing every day, but.. HE IS MY REFUGE. i just have to keep reminding myself of this.
i want to fight. i dont know if i can expand more on this... maybe another time.
this post is a complete mess of randomness... but that just about sums up my life right now. i just felt like blogging, so i did just that.
i hope you guys are all much more perky than i am. im ready to be my perky self again. time, time, time.
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