this life is a journey.

a friend died this past weekend. it was heartbreaking. and so surreal. you forget stuff like this can happen in your life, until it does. and it rips your heart out. Caroline and I were not close friends, but she was a sister in Christ, someone I shared 4 years with, ocassionally chatted with, and spent time with even if it was in a group. our class was a unit, even if we all hated each other at times. and Caroline was so joyful, so happy. I knew that much about her. everyone knew that about her. Today at her service, we celebrated her beautiful life here on earth. and we celebrated her entrance into the Father's arms. She is complete, perfect, and where she belongs. us, here, we are not where we belong. we are only here a brief moment to share God's glory. but where we belong, home, is in the Father's arms, with sweet Caroline. that day i look forward to, but what about my legacy? i know ive made my share of mistakes, been plenty selfish, but i would hope that people would be able to remember me as someone that had a beautiful heart like Caroline's. i can only hope. and today, when Caroline's sweet college best friends were sharing about the friendship they had with Caroline, i remembered the amazing friendships I have in my life that I shouldnt take for granted. i should never go a day without letting people know i love them and that they are wonderful. remind them that the Lord can take us at any day, so we should live our lives accordingly. and we really should. and i want to reach that point where i am completely content in Christ and who He made me to be. maybe that will be the day i go home to Him. until then, i love you. yeah, even if i dont know you. and i urge you to seek Christ. He adores you. He wants your attention more than you can even imagine. and sweet Caroline, joyful Caroline, i am enthralled by your love for Christ and jealous of your time with Him. you are now more perfect and joyful than any of us here. thank you for gracing us with your life. we have all been blessed by you, even with by the smallest of smiles. :) rest in peace gorgeous. He is now holding you in his arms, forever.