this life is a journey.

as i sit, in the darkness of my room, even though its mid afternoon, i encounter a sweet time with the Lord. through pain and insecurity, He finally breaks me. finally. and then He rescues me. i once again called for help, but this time He answered. He held me. and although it didnt feel all better, i was able to rest in His arms. cry in His arms. He wants me. and he wont stop until He has me. thank you Jesus.

i dont know what my future looks like, i feel so uncertain about anyone who has ever said they truly love me. is there only One that truly loves and never gives up? although He doesnt always reveal Himself, He is always there. I dont have to question whether He loves me. and that lets me rest. gives me peace. because when i feel like no one else could ever love me or will be able to keep loving me, i know with the Lord that will NEVER be the case. He is breaking and renewing me daily. and im thankful his love is never ending, so big, and so perfect.

and the song that the Lord used to break me. and rescue me. I should have known.



"Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek Your face
Lord all I am is is Yours

My whole life
I place in Your hands
God of mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence at Your throne


I called You answered
And You came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where You are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high"

hillsong- came to my rescue