this life is a journey.

for the evening, i've been watching one of shows that i enjoy, and decided to watch another one to keep me from actually thinking before i try to sleep. oh, why would i do that? i've been doing that SO much lately. just holding myself back from actually feeling what i need to feel, thinking what i need to think.... i cant shake this one. not tonight. and for the first time in awhile, thats okay with me. im so ready to be over & done with us. ready to actually be able to wear a real smile when people ask how im doing. im not okay.

the good thing is, God is capable of getting me exactly where He wants me. and He will. i know its going to continue to be a long hard road, but He's got a plan. im literally putting one foot in front of the other these days. i just realized how vulnerable im being here, for anyone that actually reads this.

i dont even know where my head is at. can i get some appreciation? some love? maybe some encouragement?

i need a lyric break.

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And I can’t carry on living like this,
talking through glass.
You know that I can’t be the one to banish the mist,
and ghosts in your past.

And so I’m left without a choice but walking out,
Though I’ve no hope I’ll ever find someone like you.
My head screaming I have to leave you,
but my heart is filled with doubts;
I don’t I wanna leave, but tell me what else can I do?

-thrice. talking through glass. [brilliant artists. christian lead. lyrics are moving, go read some.]

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is anything too hard for the Lord?

"the only thing too hard for the Lord is our deliberate and continual disbelief in His love and power, and our ultimate rejection of His plans for us."

tomorrow comes the song.