this life is a journey.

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its crazy to look at journal entry from 3 days ago and see all that the Lord has done in my heart during that time. its incredible. i asked for strength and He gave it. and He is continuing to give it. something i realized on my drive home last night is that life is always going to be hard. its never going to stop being hard. i need to learn to trust God now and seek Him through things. if i continue to allow myself to get down and overly think things everytime something is difficult in life, i wont enjoy life. not only that, i wont glorify Him in all things. God never promised it would be easy, only that it would be worth it.

He has a master plan. i have to learn to trust Him in that. HAVE TO. He wants me to surrender it all to Him. and its a process.
"you have to get more excited about God, then you are about me, or anything else." - a smart guy.

[JOHN 12:27] now my heart is troubled, and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour? No, it was for this very reason I came to this hour. Father, glorify YOUR name! -Jesus speaking about His death.

it amazes me that though Jesus knew He was going to die and He could have done something about it, HE DIDNT. He wanted to glorify the Lord. thats all He asked for- to glorify His Father's name. He knew His Father had a plan, and it was all about glorifying His Father. nothing else mattered. ITS ALL FOR THE GLORY OF THE LORD!!

[2 COR 12:9-10] three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But He said, "my grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

lyric interruption.

"so what could i say? and what could i do?... but offer this heart, oh GOD, completely to you...."

"so, ill stand with arms high and heart abandoned, in awe of THE ONE who gave it all. and ill stand, my soul Lord to you surrendered. all i am is yours." :::the stand. hillsong united.

ALL I AM IS YOURS, LORD.

i can offer nothing. i can do nothing. HE does it all.

"so, offer up everything tessa...." He speaks.


"as long as we are pursuing Him, we are satisfied in Him. it is when we stop actively loving Him that we find ourselves restless and gravitating toward other means of fulfillment." -crazy love. chan.
......YES!

"from this moment, God you are my all. i will fail at times in putting you first. i will fail at actively loving you. i will fail at being contagious and outrageous about sharing your love. but you are mighty to save. you come first, because from you flows ALL good things." -my prayer.